It was suppose to snow today...last night, but instead it's just ugly and cold another day. And there is or was ice all over the roads according to the millions phone calls I received this morning.
I hate the cold and it isn't even cold here compared to other places. My kids had to stay home from school and I usually don't work on Fridays so... it worked out. Except everything is dark and gloomy... I feel gloomy and grumpy and bitchy. Where is Spring?
The kids did a few chores and now they're watching TV. I'll let them do this all day. They don't get to during the school week.
This morning I looked out the window, after a million phone calls wouldn't let my husband and I sleep in and I noticed my red rose bush was falling over. I guess I should have covered my rose bushes this time. They're sturdy but not that sturdy.
On Wednesday we had a pipe burst and our garage was filling with water. That was a cold night. My husband was at work, but luckily my neighbor, my grumpy and old but very helpful and always to the rescue neighbor, endured the cold with me and fixed it. The pipe broke on the outside not inside the wall. If I were a religious person I would have been kissing the sky. Instead I just wanted to hug my neighbor. I offered him dinner instead, but his girlfriend was over at his house waiting for him.
I owe my neighbor a lot of dinners for the help he's given us. This past year though we've been struggling just to feed the kids. We aren't starving or anything, but we've had to ration. Have I mentioned yet, that I had to lie to my husband. I told him I canceled the meat CSA when really I just postponed deliveries for a few months in hopes that in a few months we'd see a few extra hundred dollars a month in our bank accounts.
Don't get me wrong, my husband loved the CSA meat. He was the first to notice the leanness of the meat and the clearness of the animal fat if there was any fat. He really liked that. In the end though it just came down to the fact that we couldn't cut any more here or there to afford it. Our food rationing isn't anything new. I've always been a frugal person. Rationing should be done by everyone, I think. However now it's not about saving money it's about not having enough money and so we have no choice, but to ration to keep our heads above water. I hate that. I hate not having a choice. It doesn't help that my husbands student loans are dragging us down.
I've tried to use these hard financial time to try to convert myself into a vegetarian. I feel guilty eating meat. Yes, yes roll your eyes, but it's true. It's how I feel. Besides cutting meat out of our diet would save us money and is suppose to be eco-friendly. I'd love some simple vegetarian dishes to make and eat everyday, but my addiction for meat is hard to break and there is no way in the world I could pull my husband away from meat. He'd be willing to maybe be a flexitarian or reduce the amount of meat per meal (which we have done in recent years), but not go meatless. Something is better than nothing I guess.
Anyways, since our rationing became a matter of "no choice" we haven't invited our neighbor over for dinner as much. Like I mentioned he's a grumpy old man and sometimes he says things that well.... a grumpy old man would say, but overall he means well and he's always willing to help for a meal. I know he's noticed that we haven't invited him over as much, but I don't know if he thinks we don't want him over or if he understands our financial situation. Maybe I'm wrong and he hasn't even noticed, He has been distracted on several home improvement projects and his girlfriend. In fact he just came back from a home improvement project he left for a month ago.
Ahhhhh! It's cold in here... My hands are freezing. I'm going to have to put on another sweater and yell (I've already asked them to twice so now I think I'll yell :) )at my kids to put on more clothes. Can't they feel the cold or am I just a wimp?
Cold Cold Go AWAY!